Life Happens.

I know I promised my next blog would be about hot yoga. And I know - that was 9 days ago. But this week I'm doomed to be like that boy who promises you he's going to call you in 2 days and then sends you a text message instead, 2 weeks later. (And tells you he's real sorry.)

And sometimes, that's just the way life goes.

"You have to learn that it's okay to let people down sometimes Janine", my insightful best friend gently reminded me one day back in December, as I was being pulled in 10 different directions by 10 different people and could not figure out for the life of me how to keep everybody happy.

....Oh. Well that was an answer I hadn't thought of before. I've always fallen into the habit of expecting myself to be able to do as many things as I commit to, and commit to as many things as are asked of me. But you know, life is pretty complex. And when we make promises, we do so on the premise that we can predict the future - that we know how things are going to unfold, and what life has in store for us. But sometimes, we just don't. Something that happened one way for 100 days in a row happens totally differently all of a sudden. Or we completely never saw x or y coming. Or we thought we would react to z completely differently than we actually did. It just doesn't turn out the way we thought it would.

Then, somehow, we make the mistake of blaming ourselves for it... for the future being unpredictable. Other people even blame us sometimes, and that makes us feel even worse. "You promised!" We feel guilty. But what are we feeling guilty for? For not possessing a reliable crystal ball that would tell us where our lives, our thoughts or our feelings were planning on going? It sounds ridiculous when you put it like that, doesn't it? Let's face it - nothing ever happens exactly the same way twice, so when you're looking into the future and making guarantees, you're doing so on a best guess that is doomed to be wrong, at least on some level.

I have a sneaking suspicion that the mistake we need to try to prevent in the future is not breaking our promises - but making them in the first place.

So, in conclusion, I actually have no idea when I'll blog next, and no idea what it will be about. And truthfully, that's probably one of the most realistic things I've ever said on here.

xo Janine